I think I’m delusional…
Troublesome thoughts lurk through my head
The dreams I once had are no longer mine
Slipped through the cracks that were left behind
After I realized I had finally crossed that line.
Gingerbread men build houses of sugar that melt away in the warm, hot sun.
Scream into my ears about the fears that plague your universe revolving inside your own brains that seems to only bring you so much pain. The words inaudible as I drown you out so tired of listening to you pout about how life is so difficult for you when you refuse to realize that it is difficult for everyone else too.
Sour dreams spin webs of deceit
As my hollow mind lies sleepless
Wandering souls are lost in the void
As their bodies are forever useless.
The crimes of society gain strength
Against the karmic mistakes of past
Ruining futures ripping out hopes
Knowing that hope and faith won’t last.
Sleep fills my eyes making it hard to keep them open as I slowly drift off to another land in my dreams or in my nightmares I am aware that I am not awake yet these other lands seem real and vaguely familiar to me as I make my way from one thought process to another and my eyelids flicker in rem but I do not wake just keep sleeping my life away.
Too Many Thoughts
Voice of reason
Echoing in my ear
Telling me things
Not to fear, but
How do you let go
Of things that have
Consumed you so
For too many years
Letting them hold on
And how would you
Function if they
Were all gone?
Formulated reluctance encompasses my soul as I watch the seasons pass within hours and the dead speak to me from mouths that no longer open.
Souls of weakness barely penetrate the deadly silence that is not there drowned out with the drum of ancestors chanting methodically to deafened ears.
You must learn to listen.
I sometimes feel like my insanity bleeds through my pores and I wonder if it would be possible for it to all run out and I could be “normal” again. I don’t want to be “normal” for I know not what it really is or consists of but I also do not want everyone to see my faults on the outside I’d like to continue to hide them within.